24 | I belong deeply to myself
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Reblogged from red-swarm  148,004 notes
Posted 25, January, 2024

problemnyatic:

beebzah:

problemnyatic:

“I would kill for you. I would die for you” would you take a break for me? Would you sit down and rest? For a day, a week, a year? Would you let others take care of your needs for me? Would you let yourself be held for me? By me?

Nothing against blorboposting but i want to be clear. I don't ship. This is was never about fiction. This is about you. This is about me, this is about the people that I love. This is about a lifetime of grief watching people that mean more than the world to me throw themselves away because they refuse to see themselves as worth even a drop of how much they mean to me.ALT
This is about getting over your desperation to be a suicidal hero for long enough to realize that dying for someone you love is a terrible thing to do when they never wanted you to die at all. We see the way you punish yourself with work, we see the way your need to make grand gestures betrays that you're convinced you could never be enough. And it hurts. It hurts so much.ALT
You're loved. I love you. I love you more than you could ever know. I don't need to know you to know that I love you enough to take your hand as gently as a baby bird and ask you simply, with the wordstopping force of a newborn heart, "Rest."ALT
So please, when you read this, pause. Think of the ship, think of your blorbo, of course. But ask yourself if this is about you, too. Take a breath, check in with your body, and rest. For me. For all the tears I couldn't shed over all the punishment I couldn't stop my dearest friends from inflicting on themselves for me.ALT

OP i hope its okay to reblog with your additions bc they are good

not only is it okay, I think i’d like that very much, thank you.